Acronyms and Glossary

I have a terrible penchant for the use of acronyms on this blog. Mainly it is to anonymise individuals, but sometimes it’s simply shorthand for something. Furthermore, I am wont to use mental health terms with which I am familiar, but that others aren’t necessarily.

Whatever the case, I do understand how confusing thIs can be. You could just look some of this stuff up, and often I have provided relevant links in my prose, but since I’m such a nice person I’m going to do it for you.

(Please note, I have mentioned some friends and family here, but not all. I don’t know why I’ve included some and not others; the decision was completely arbitrary. But the full details on the personnel in my life are here).

This is very much a work in progress, so if you think there’s a term that should go in here, you spot any mistakes or whatever, leave a comment at the bottom and I’ll sort it out.

ACRONYMS AND GLOSSARY OF TERMS ON
CONFESSIONS OF A SERIAL INSOMNIAC

A – Boyfriend.

AC – Friend.

B – Friend.

BMcC – Friend of A’s.

BP / BPI / BPIIBipolar (disorder), bipolar I, bipolar II. I tend not to use this acronym with frequency but you never know. I was diagnosed with BPII in June 2009, but rather than prescribe the medication required for this illness I was given anti-depressants that are known to exacerbate it. Go figure.

Type I involves swings between manias and depressions, as well as periods of euthymia (see below). Type II tends to exhibit hypomanic (see below) symptoms rather than full mania, and is not known to include psychosis and mixed episodes. Which is interesting as I have both.

BPDBorderline Personality Disorder. I was diagnosed with this illness of considerable disgust in June 2009. Characterised by an intense fear of abandonment, self-harm and suicidality, seeing things in black and white terms, marked disturbance and variability in mood, shaky sense of identity, and other such lovely bullshit. A diagnosis under the DSM (see below); known as Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder in the ICD (see below).

Often seen in individuals with a history of abuse and/or neglect, but certainly not limited to such people. Many figures suggests a higher incidence in females; others suggest the disorder is equally prvalent amongst blokes.

Called ‘borderline’ under the DSM as it was felt when it was first conceptualised as a distinct illness that those presenting with it were on the border between psychoses and neuroses, though many contemporary psychiatrists feel that this is no longer an accurate description, and psychotic symptoms are certainly not required for diagnosis. Many calls for a change in the name.

C – Doctor of clinical psychology practicing psychodynamic therapy and erstwhile shite DBT (see below) to try and make me less mental.

CBTCognitive Behavioural Therapy. Seeks to change one’s negative thinking about things and as such alleviate negative emotions and problematic behaviour. Fundamentally fails for cynical fucks like me because it is considered idealistic nonsense, not to mention the fact that it utterly neglects the idea of why you are mental, merely the symptoms thereof.

Conveniently considered the panacea of mental health treatment in the UK. Obviously it is entirely coincidental that CBT tends to be relatively short-term and therefore less expensive to the NHS (see below).

CMHT – Cunty Mental Health Twats. Oh, sorry, wait. Community Mental Health Team. Supposedly a multi-disciplinary group of professionals who work their magic to make mentals less mental. In reality, mostly fuckwitted, well-meaning but disillusioned tossers who know about as much about the actual experience of mental illness as a dog turd.

Co-morbidity – More than one illness running concurrently. In my case, I have a (supposedly) primary diagnosis of BPD (see above), but this is co-morbid with (a ((supposedly)) secondary diagnosis of) bipolar disorder, (as well as) depression and social anxiety.

C-PTSD – See PTSD (below).

CVM – Friend. I have not yet met CVM in person, but nevertheless count her amongst my close friends.

D – Best friend. Known since school days.

DBTDialectical Behavioural Therapy. Similar to, but distinct from, CBT (see above). Predicated on the principles on dialectics, which is a form of metaphysical argument suggesting that rationality can overcome disagreement in the search for truth.

DBT as devised by its inventor, academic psychologist Marsha Linehan, espouses radical acceptance (wank), mindfulness (wank – I am not a buddhist), regulating one’s emotions (why not just use Valium, for Christ’s sake?) and other stupid nonsense. It initially seeks to tackle suicide/self-harm issues, and then tries to patronise you into simply accepting everything and not making value judgements on it. Hmm.

I have less hatred for DBT than CBT, because I do see some benefit in some of the principles such as meditation. Nevertheless, it is my belief that that kind of thing is merely a complimentary and not a scientifically proven intervention. And bullshit like painting red nail polish on yourself instead of watchng the beauty of your own blood flowing is just a pile of condescending toss.

Delusion – A seriously mistaken belief. Like, seriously. Like my beliefs that my mother and the government had rigged up an entire video system everywhere I went. A pathologically erroneous belief, though the term is used colloquially for non-pathological ideas.

Delusions, especially in the paranoid subtype of schizophrenia, are often persecutory, but are certainly not limited to this. Other types include grandiose delusions, referential, control, etc, etc. The list is a long one.

DB – Friend of A’s.

DI – A’s brother.

DIDDissociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder).  Description to follow.

DL – Friend.

Dr C – See VCB.

DSM – The Diagnostic and Statistics Manual of Mental Disorders, published by the American Psychiatric Association. Currently in its fourth incarnation, though version five is due for publication in 2013. There is presently considerable debate as to what should be included, ommitted or amended in DSM-V.

Although it is the US standard text of nutjobbery, it is also used frequently across the globe for diagnosis of various labels of insanity. Compare ICD (see below).

Euthymia – a period of normality, between ‘episodes’. What the fuck actually is this? I vaguely remember – that period where you can work, where you don’t freak out every time your boyfriend leaves the room, where you can go out socially yourself…but I can’t foresee it coming back any time soon.

G – Friend of A’s. Hyper-mega-out-there-intellectual who almost made me think DBT was not complete shite with his discussion of the philosophy behind it.

Hallucinations – the quintessence of one’s mind playing tricks on one, and then some. Sensual perceptions, experienced during consciousness, that have no stimulus. The most well-known type of hallucination is hearing voices (such as Tom and ‘They’ – see below), but even auditory hallucinations can be more wide-ranging than this – in my case, music and knocking are known.

Hallucinations can also effect sight (shapes in my case, but others may see people, monsters, whatever), touch, taste and smell. Crazy Mermaid has an excellent post on the range of hallucinatory types here.

Hypomania – A milder form of mania (see below). The upside of bipolar type II, hypomania and indeed bipolar II itself can be difficult to spot owing to the fact that hypomania can be mistaken for a good mood, rather than a potentially dangerous state. It can have the same symptoms as mania, psychoses excepted; the difference tends to be in the severity.

IBSIrritable Bowel SyndromeDescription to follow.

ICDInternational Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems. Published by the World Health Organisation, the ICD is not limited to the diagnoses of mental health problems, but includes physical illnesses also. Currently in its tenth edition, ICD-XI is planned for 2015. As with DSM-V (see above), there is currently debate as to what criteria vis a vis mental disorders should be included in the new ICD. Both it and the DSM try to use the same codes of diagnosis, but they differ distinctly in many ways, especially as regards personality disorders, which the DSM considers a distinct axis of fuckuppery, where the ICD does not.

The document is used frequently internationally for statistical purposes, and outside North America is often – though certainly not always – used as the main diagnostic tool for mental illnesses. Sometimes it’s used in conjunction with the DSM.

K – Friend. Also a ‘diagnosee’ of BPD. Originally from Northern Ireland too, and in a similarly attached relationship with her therapist.

LGP – Lovely GP. My primary medical doctor. Unlike the majority of his counterparts, he is the antithesis of a cunt. That is why I call him ‘lovely’, as he is. He really is.

Mania – Euphoric side of bipolar. Sometimes simply used as a short-hand term for hypomania, though the two are distinct. Mania not only sees eurphoric highs but impulsivity, recklessness, sleeplessness and restlessness, irritability and in extreme cases psychosis.

Mixed Episode – AKA Mixed State, Dysphoric Mania, Agitated Depression (though the latter two are considered distinct). Highly unpleasant mental state in which both symptoms of mania and depression are present. Sound impossible? Trust me, I wish it was.

One might feel suicidal, agitated, restless, paranoid, impulsiveness, tears and sadness, anger, bleakness, racing thoughts/speech, hopelessness. Blah blah blah. They are not fun states in which to be. When I say I am ‘going mental’, this is usually what I mean.

A mixed state is a common feature of bipolar disorder, but I don’t think it’s limited to that illness. Officially, to be diagnosed with a such a state (under the DSM anyhow), it should have lasted for over a week, but in practice this isn’t usually adhered to.

MPD – Multiple Personality Disorder.  See DID (above).

NHS – Nasty Headfucking Sadists. AKA National Health Service. Supposedly a public healthcare system, funding by the national insurance of the UKs many taxpayers. If you have an acute illness, or even a chronic physical health problem, the NHS ranges from alright to very good. Unfortunately, it isn’t generally that good for mental health, as my rants here, here and here will attest. This has ensured that I have actually developed a strong personal dislike for a service that, in theory, I strongly support.

The good sides of the NHS in my experience: LGP (see above) and…and…hmm. C…maybe.

NPDNarcissistic Personality Disorder. I became completely convinced this was something with which I should be diagnosed in this post. I am still not convinced I do not have it, as – as this journal proves – I am completely self-absorbed and -obsessed.

Olanzapine – An anti-psychotic medication (AKA Zyprexa) that also functions as a mood stabiliser, and, in off-label usage, a sedative. Since November 2009 I have been taking the lowest daily dose of this, at 2.5mg. I believe it is a helpful drug, though a higher dose is necessitated.

PDPersonality Disorder. An inflexible, potentially detrimental and long-term pattern of behaviour and personality characteristics. Considered Axis-II illnesses under the DSM (see above) and sub-divided into three categories – cluster A, the ‘odd’ cluster; cluster B, the ‘impulsive’ cluster; and cluster C, the anxious cluster.

The term ‘PD’ is considered offensive by some mental health advocates as it suggests there is something inherently wrong with the individual’s personality, and that it is very hard to determine where the line between ‘individuality’ or ‘eccentricity’ becomes a PD.

Psychopathology – Simply the study of mental illnesses in terms of how they manifest, develop, are caused, etc. The mental form of general pathology, the study of diseases. Also used as general term to indicate the presentation of symptoms, eg. “the individual presented psychopathology consistent with avoidant personality disorder.”

Psychosis – A situation in which one has loss of contact with reality. Manifests most frequently as delusions or hallucinations (see above), though personality changes and disordered thoughts and speech may also feature. Psychoses that I experience include, though are not limited to, Tom and ‘They’ (see below).

PTSDPost-traumatic Stress Disorder.  In cases of sustained or protracted interpersonal trauma, Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD) may be evident.  Descriptions to follow.

Rapid Cycling – Term used to describe ‘frequently’ changing episodes of mania, hypomania, mixed states (see above) and/or depression (and sometimes euthmyia) in bipolar disorder. Under the DSM (see above) rapid cycling is (rather laughably) considered to present as more than four different episodes within one year.

In cases where the cycles are much more frequent than this, the cycling is considered to be ultra-rapid. In cases where moods can shift within 24 or so hours, the cycling is known as ultradian.

SADSeasonal Affective DisorderDescription to follow. In some blogs this acronym is used to denote Schizoaffective Disorder (see below), but not in this one.

Schizoaffective Disorder – Mood disorder falling within the schizophrenic, and arguably the bipolar, spectrums. Differs from schizophrenia in that mood disturbance as well as a range of psychotic symptoms are present; however, some argue this is simply a case of co-morbidity (see above) with either severe depression or bipolar disorder, though there is evidence that physiology differs slightly from these diagnoses.

Differs from psychotic depression in that the psychoses also occur outside a depressive episode. Also has two sub-types; depressive and bipolar.

When my psychoses became worse in the summer of 2009, this became my self-diagnosis of choice. Either that or BPII (see above) with rapid cycling (see above) and psychotic features. I still consider these as possibilities, though am ‘content’ with the borderline and BPII diagnoses nevertheless.

SH / SI / SM – self-harm, self-injury, self-mutilation. Not acronyms I am wont to use, but should I ever do so, that is what they are. Covers obvious things like deliberately cutting oneself, burning, trich (see below) and head-banging (though not in the rocker sense, mais oui). Less obvious manifestations include scratching, picking scabs and suchlike.

Self-harm is often derided and feared by those that do not engage in it, but it is a way to cope. I read the quote somewhere that ‘the scars on the outside are smaller than those on the inside’. Trite, but truthful.

I’ve explored my experiences with self-harm here and here, and in a slightly more bizarre context, here.

‘They’ – auditory hallucinations of abject terror. A cacophony of malicious voices who have tried to get me to kill myself and who otherwise despise me. Discussed in detail in this post, ‘They’ are grammatically and personality challenged and I hate them. Their hold on me has abated slightly since I began taking Olanzapine in November 2009, but as of this writing they are not actually gone.

Tom – auditory hallucination not of abject terror. Tom is a voice whose primary function seemed to be to soothe me and/or befriend me. Full details on him are in this post. I haven’t encountered him since I started taking Olanzapine, though I’m reserving judgement on whether or not he is completely gone, as he was always transient anyway.

Trich – in the context of this blog, trich refers to pulling one’s hair out. I do this when in a particularly nasty mixed state or when especially agitated. Comes from the full term trichotillomania, which is a compulsion to pull one’s hair.

Ultradian Cycling – See Rapid Cycling.

Ultra-Rapid Cycling – See Rapid Cycling.

VCB – Vinegar Cunted Bitch. Dr C. My psychiatrist of evil.

Venlafaxine – Anti-depressant of the SNRI variety, also known by the brand name Effexor. Initially prescribed it in June 2009 at 75mg, which was increased to 150mg in September of the same year. Insidious and evil, Venlafaxine is a back-up drug where other drugs have failed. The problem is it takes you to take the fucking thing to find out how much it fucks with your head. Read about my personal side effects here.

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2 Responses to “Acronyms and Glossary”

  1. Superb. Very informative.

    • Why, thank you *bows*

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